Its time to sit down, relax, have a glass of wine and hate my body...
Ugh.
I've been in Florida for a few weeks now and I am in heaven. We spent the baby pandas first birthday at the beach. It was amazing. My surrogate family all sitting on a sandbar 150 ft from shore digging up shells for babys first birthday while she splashed and enjoyed the gulf.
That part was wonderful. The part where i left my only flattering swimsuit in Ohio was awful. I was quickly reminded that even though ive lost around 50 pounds i have another 50 to go.
So here I sit post work-out loathing my body. Im considerably healthier being a vegetarian, my habits are better... and that fact is exponentially increased being around very healthy veggie friends. A small hippie clan we have, and we all live in the same complex. I'll have no choice but to lose weight. It wont be a concious issue, ive lost weight being here already.
Though i am still painfully aware of the extra weight i lug around from day to day. Why?
I spent the last year in a depressive fog, zoned on meds, and hating just about everything. I am to hard on
myself.... and not hard enough at the same time.
Never the less I am off meds, Creating great art, cooking, goofing off, and happy.
Now the weight needs to be off like now....
Ugh.
That part was wonderful. The part where i left my only flattering swimsuit in Ohio was awful. I was quickly reminded that even though ive lost around 50 pounds i have another 50 to go.
So here I sit post work-out loathing my body. Im considerably healthier being a vegetarian, my habits are better... and that fact is exponentially increased being around very healthy veggie friends. A small hippie clan we have, and we all live in the same complex. I'll have no choice but to lose weight. It wont be a concious issue, ive lost weight being here already.
Though i am still painfully aware of the extra weight i lug around from day to day. Why?
I spent the last year in a depressive fog, zoned on meds, and hating just about everything. I am to hard on
myself.... and not hard enough at the same time.
Never the less I am off meds, Creating great art, cooking, goofing off, and happy.
Now the weight needs to be off like now....
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