Sunday, September 30, 2012

Beautiful day

A hike through lettuce lake national park with a panda back pack.

Sunday, September 16, 2012


   Its time to sit down, relax, have a glass of wine and hate my body...


I've been in Florida for a few weeks now and I am in heaven. We spent the baby pandas first birthday at the beach. It was amazing. My surrogate family all sitting on a sandbar 150 ft from shore digging up shells for babys first birthday while she splashed and enjoyed the gulf.

That part was wonderful. The part where i left my only flattering swimsuit in Ohio was awful. I was quickly reminded that even though ive lost around 50 pounds i have another 50 to go.

So here I sit post work-out loathing my body. Im considerably healthier being a vegetarian, my habits are better... and that fact is exponentially increased being around very healthy veggie friends. A small hippie clan we have, and we all live in the same complex. I'll have no choice but to lose weight. It wont be a concious issue, ive lost weight being here already.

Though i am still painfully aware of the extra weight i lug around from day to day. Why?

I spent the last year in a depressive fog, zoned on meds, and hating just about everything. I am to hard on
 myself.... and not hard enough at the same time.

Never the less I am off meds, Creating great art, cooking, goofing off, and happy.

Now the weight needs to be off like now....

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Bird brain

My brain has taken a turn a beautifully disturbing turn...