Sunday, August 26, 2012

'we live where you vacation'

I am home.

The second time I was in Florida was to move in to our new place. I am in love. The journey was long.

18 1/2 hours to drive to Tampa from Toledo, Ohio. I drove the car while my husband drove a large U-haul. 1100 miles under my belt... Mostly at night.

Driving through southernOhio and Kentucky brought back memories of a boot camp graduation and long car ride with old friends. Though not Ohio I was still on familiar territory.

Tennessee, Was beautiful to drive through. We were told on each rest stop, by a slow southern drawl, that we talked to fast.

Georgia was beautiful as well. Although driving through Atlanta on the freeway is terrifying.

Florida. I barely knew we entered Florida until I hopped out of the car at the hotel. Florida just smells different. A beautiful earthy saltwater smell. Even after spending 15 hours driving on and off at that point and being vaguely delirious I recognized that smell.

There are palm trees outside my windows. Fresh produces stands within a short walk from my front door and a lake is a short walk in the other direction.

Beaches. Culture. Beauty. Best friends.

All of my friends sat at a table last night and at a vegan buffet no less. They teased and talked to my daughter. We all laughed obnoxiously.
We stayed up doing a lot of nothing but play vintage video games.

It only just hit me yesterday. I live in Florida. I am surrounded by palm trees, buddies, little lizards and opportunities.

We live where you vacation.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Top hats all around

I wear my top hat while packing up the remnants of my house today. I've said my final goodbyes and we leave tomorrow evening.

Tampa bound.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012


My favorite memorabilia. Used on stage and signed by the drummer

Matchbook Romance <3

Monday, August 13, 2012

7 days...

I've never been so excited for a Monday to come. Next Monday we leave Ohio.

I imagine it won't be permanently but who knows.

This past year has been awful away from my friends. The loneliness was staggering. While I understand the necessity (to an extent) of that loneliness it didn't make this last year any easier.

I've found myself lonely in a room full of people yet completely at home in a place I had never been before.

I cried when I arrived back home after my vacation because I wanted to join the little family Rob and I had created with the family my friends have all created.

Now we are half packed up ready to go right now. I can barely breathe I am so excited to get away.

I love my family dearly but northwest Ohio is no place for a crazy artist introvert.

I feel as if I have expanded beyond the barriers of this place and I need more room to grow. Different influences, different places, different memories. If I stay here much longer my growth will be stunted like do many others.

It will be nice to be somewhere where no one knows you or knows your family or went to school with some random relative.

It will be nice to be somewhere where you don't have fend off crazy lies and stories from a sad nemesis. Nice to not be recognized by my mothers maiden name. ( we have a large polish family).

I won't have to battle farm equipment for road space.

Forgive me I'm all over the place with excitement.

Friday, August 10, 2012

Eternal summer.


I'm starting a count down.... 10 days.

10days till I pack my family up and move to Tampa. A place where all of my friends are converging.

It's also a place with no damn snow. That's right no snow on my January birthday.
Though it's not just the snow that bothers me during and Ohio winter. What gets me is that soul crushing never ending grey residing over the dead cornfields and bare trees and The dirty snow that blends the world together into a blinding mess.

It's depressing and quickly takes its toll.

My being was not meant for such weather.

I cannot properly express my excitement. In fact I have to suppress and ignore it in order to function.

Sunshine. Ocean. Art.