Monday, January 10, 2011


I have always held a high regard for psychology. While it is considered a soft science I often find that the facts presented within the subject to be absolute or  at least somewhere near it. 

I have been told that creative minds are statistically more likely to develop schizophrenia, sometimes I feel like I'm halfway there. 
My interest has always been on the psychosis side of  psychology. It is nothing new to me to be attracted to the darker side of things...

Introduction to Psychosis
Psychosis is chaotic thinking that is the result of a severely impaired reality test ( the patient cannot tell inner fantasy from outside reality). Some psychotic states are short-lived and transient (microepisodes). These last from a few hours to a few days and are sometimes reactions to stress. Psychotic microepisodes are common in certain personality disorders, most notably the Borderline and Schizotypal. Persistent psychoses are a fixture of the patient's mental life and manifest for months or years.
Psychotics are fully aware of events and people "out there". They cannot, however separate data and experiences originating in the outside world from information generated by internal mental processes. They confuse the external universe with their inner emotions, cognitions, preconceptions, fears, expectations, and representations.

I'm sure everyone has come into contact with people like this, some of us more than others. Sometimes it is hard to realize that this is truly a sickness that calls for medication.  A spiteful or vengeful psychotic can be a lot to deal with, especially when they are seeking revenge from their own delusions. 

I have toyed with the idea of being a professional psychologist. Honestly, as I get older I realize that I don't have much tolerance for people. that is most definitely a problem. I imagine it would be different, sitting in an office, but it is hard to put myself in those shoes.  I cannot deny that my tolerance for mankind is shrinking with every illiterate idiot that enters my life. I also have an unfailingly forgiving heart, that tends to get me into trouble. The combination of intolerant yet forgiving does not make for a good therapist. After all I couldn't ethically tell a patient to "get over it" or "stop being an idiot", as much as I know i would want to. I would probably end up driving myself crazy by forcing my opinions out the door. 

I deal with these people in my everyday life unfortunately, I would love to have the power to commit a few of them, but to deal with that in both my personal and professional life would be a bit much. Frankly Ive learned how to ignore it anymore it is just a nuisance or a pitiful form of entertainment.

Fun fact:
delusion is "a false belief based on incorrect inference about external reality that is firmly sustained despite what almost everyone else believes and despite what constitutes incontrovertible and obvious proof or evidence to the contrary".

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